Last night I was gifted a dream where Zac showed up. I was told he was down in the field and I waited at the edge for him to come to me. I could not see him but as he got closer I knew he was there. He reached out to me and said” I walk with you”. Today December begins and that was the message I most needed to hear. This week my boy would be turning 47 . We have faced 27 birthdays without him. I will begin preparing for Christmas and I look forward to that. I love getting out the decorations, putting up the tree and placing each meaningful ornament on the branches. I love recalling the memories and making new ones. But it is hard, heartbreaking and takes strength and courage. Some shun the season for that reason but I choose to embrace it. I do not expect it to be easy and I do not expect anyone to do it for me. I wouldn’t want anyone to try. I also don’t expect anyone to completely understand what December is for me. But I know and I also know Zac showed up and assured me that he walks with me.
Getting Ready to do December
